immigrant paradise

tanche @ 2004-06-07T01:56:00

2004-06-07T05:56:49Z

i looove this song its so cute ahh (read below) and if ya wanna hear it click here

Slavi Trifonov - No, No and No
Every time, when I become quiet
Actually I’m speaking with you
Actually I’m telling you a million things
But then again I’m quiet
Every time, when I become quiet
Actually I ask “Do you want me by your side?”
Actually I hold you and whisper
But then again I’m quiet
Of fear that I might hurt you, I’m quiet.

Chorus:
And I can’t decide
And I don’t want to make a mistake
Should I speak now or no?
No, no, no, no and no

Every time, when I become quiet
I turn back time
But I cannot change it
And I’m only quiet…
Every time, when I become quiet
Actually I’m saying
That I cant be without you
But you cant know that
And I’m only quiet…
Of fear that I might hurt you, I’m quiet.

Chorus:
And I can’t decide
And I don’t want to make a mistake
Should I speak now or no?
No, no, no, no and no

Slavi Trifonov - Ne, Ne y Ne
Vseki pat kogato zamalcha
Vsushnost si govorya s teb
Vsushnost kazvam ti hilyadi neshta
No vse pak malcha
Vseki pat kogato zamalcha
Vsushnost pitam “Iskash li me do teb?”
Vsushnost te pregrushtam y sheptia
No vse pak malcha
Ot strah da ne te naranya malcha

Chorus:
Y ne moga da resha
Y ne iskam da zgresha
Da govorya li sega ili ne
Ne, ne, ne, ne y ne

Vseki pat kogato zamalcha
Vrushtam vremeto nazad
No ne moga da go promenya
Y samo malcha…
Vseki pat kogato zamalcha
Vsushnost kazvam
Che ne moga bez teb
No ne biva ti da znaesh tova
Y samo malcha…
Ot strah da ne te naranya malcha

Chorus:
Y ne moga da resha
Y ne iskam da zgresha
Da govorya li sega ili ne
Ne, ne, ne, ne y ne

his album is pretty good - i like the last song a lot too

Slavi Trifonov - Prima Patriot 2004
1. Domachine
2. Bog visoko, tzar daleko (God high, ruler far)
3. Ne, ne i ne! (No, no and no!)
4. Shiroko zatvoreni ochi (Wide closed eyes)
5. Ain't no sunshine
6. I wanna feel you
7. Bolero - Balkan version
8. Ah kade e moito libe (Oh where is my love)
9. Bulgari - yunatzi (Bulgarian heroes)
10. Bez sluntze za teb i za men (Without sunshine for you and me)
11. Slushai matzko (Listen chick)
12. Tova e luja (This is a lie)
13. Profesorsko horo (A professor's horo)
14. Vecherai, Rado (Have dinner, Rado)
15. Tolkova (This much)

tanche @ 2004-06-02T23:45:00

2004-06-03T03:45:58Z

i feel like im living someone else's life
these are someone else's memories, someone else's future
kinda like a movie...
i kinda wanna push all limits just to see wut happends...maybe for fun...maybe cuz i dont really care...see how much i can get away with
i used to hold grudges before when sumone pissed me off n it wasnt resolved. i dont even bother wasting my time doin that anymore (most of the time). is that good or bad? i dont care enough anymore to hold onto a grudge if that makes any sense.

i dont feel like being careful who i trust anymore...so ill just pretend the whole world is honest and means well.
i've decided that fites are good once in a while as long as it gets u somewhere better than where u started from. that first one is always a bitch thow.

im gonna look back on this entry and think wut the hell was i on...its one of those "i just woke up n my head is all screwd up" kinda things

presentations day was fun...except for that part where i had to present...i got the biggest accent ever,,,sometimes i hate my immigrantness even thow i do use it as an excuse for everything =P

yesterday i got yelled at because it was raining...yes it was my fault there was thunder n lightning n water commin out of the sky. dhabu was laffin at me but i just think my parents forgot how to talk normally. i admit it would be pretty cool to control the weather but lets get back to reality...

k bye now

tanche @ 2004-05-22T00:12:00

2004-05-22T04:12:19Z

what can i say about prom, it was great, so much fun seriously i wish we could do it all over again. im happie i decided not to go wit a date cuz i got to just hav fun without bein conserned about what the other person is doin. everyone looked so pretty, and handsome awww. i want pix!!!

before prom...oh goodness...the prepatation was exhausting ahh i wish i never hav to go thru that again. we were late so we got only a couple of pix. some ppl didnt seem to happy about the addition to the pic but um... tough.

afterprom was cool too except for that part where a bunch of us had no idea what was goin on after the comedy club cuz no one would tell us. so after chasing ppl down, sendin emails that never got responces, and asking the same question like 10 times during the afterprom itself we figured out that the limo driver wasnt told he has to drop us off at our houses...uhoh...and ofcourse we (the ppl that were not taking part in kaavya's sleepover) had nowhere else to go so came the figuring out of directions and driving around NJ all nite. not complaining i liked the drive, very relaxing but i would have liked to know what was goin on more than 5 min before it happened especially cuz i did pay the same as everyone for my nite of fun. thanx for being considerate...so did the limo driver too lol anyway everyone got dropped off...and me mimi and eee went to fair lawn to eee's house to stay for the day. it was light outside by then cuz our stop got pushed to last but thats ok it was pretty cool havin the whole limo to ourselves for a while.

im sorta thinkin goin in the limo was a mistake thow. i woulda been equally fine with goin with a car...and meeting up wit ppl at the comedy club. the limo shit added unnecessary drama and travel time to my nite.

after that (6 am) it was a mix of half drunk half high from no sleep talks, uncontrollable laffing, 3 hr long movie, random pass-outs, my unusual hyperness (we didnt sleep much), eee's pillow, and mimi's add. hah good times good times. 128 pix to prove it.

anyway more about prom later cuz it needs to really sink in before i can make a meaningful entry about it.

lately ive had couple of realizations:
its really sad to see how sum ppl are so self centered and stuck up. at first it bothered me cuz i kno i was nothing but nice, but then i realized its a waste of my time. i do not need the attitude from someone who's biggest worries concern their own comforts and whims. keep thinkin ur better than everyone but remember ur in this position right now because somebody somewhere thought about somethig besides themselves. just hope life doesnt turn on ya one day so u learn how it is on the other side the hard way.

i really admire the ppl who saw how wrong that was. u kno who u are. luv u guys

tanche @ 2004-05-16T22:47:00

2004-05-17T02:47:10Z

srry, lj, for abandoning you for a while but i didnt have interesting enough things to say. i still dont really but eee told me to write so i will.
so, prom:
dress - check
shoes - check
accesories - check
date - uncheck....one day im totally fine with that and another i wish i did bring someone...eh wuteva

add break: i like pickles!! they are sooo soo good. o o and baby carrots with blue cheese dressing. yummie. i love walking and the summer breeze. peachy pink is my new favorite color. it was vaz's bday yesterday yayyy. i had a scary as hell dream last night that still freaks me out rite now. some people have little or no recollection of their childhood which seems impossible to me. maybe im just weird cuz i remember everything...and i mean pretty much everything sinse i was 3 and a half. i wanna go to hawaii. i need to put more effort into some friendships i think. so friday was fun but no details look at eee's entry
n also id like to give a shout out to janet cuz she made a special edit just for me. janet you are one sexy mama *wink wink*. end add break

totally unrelated: so i was thinking, once in a while i wish i was a total badass in the real sense of the word. what is the reason for sticking to my morals and beliefs. i dont kno but that reason is makin my life alot harder. maybe im just hoping for some kind of reward for being good. like life would balance itself out and if i do wuts rite it would come back to me. its not because im that religious or anything...its just logical i guess...in my head lol. if you give good to the world it would give good back to u....right? yea im still waiting to see the second part of that happen but u kno once in a while its like ok i dont give a shit anymore i had enough.
me n janet were talkin about sumthin on the fone n i didnt get to finish my thought so here: think of ur fav candy. now if u had it every 5 minutes u'd eventually not like it as much. it wont be ur favorite. but if u had it say once a month, all that anticipation would make it all the more yummie. (ok that sounded like a much better metaphor in my head). point is, same wit sex. if u do it 24/7 it becomes sumthing routine with no meaning to it. now if u wait for that one person that will be ur husband or wife the whole thing becomes very meaningfull and special (overused word but tru). its a choice, doesnt mean those who dont wait are wrong. but i choose to wait cuz guess wut, i can, so why not.
if you get or do everthing you want the minute u want it, u end up not having any direction in life. if you are used to waiting for things with patience you learn to appreciate what you get much more. at least thats how it works for me. man i had to work damn hard for my first roller blades and that took alot of time and stubornness on my part haha. same with my slinky!! hah dont mind my immigrantness.
anyways the other reason is that im a perfectionist so its so easy for me to regret things. if hes the one ur gonna get married to him anyway rite? (unless ur against marriage) that and well i hate going the same direction as the masses on things like this. i can keep goin on and on about this but i doubt ppl got to the end and well i gotta do my senior sem paper...still...yea
payce out homeyz

oo oo gimme ideas for prom hairstyles plzzzzzzzzzz!!

its summer, kids

2004-04-19T01:49:48Z

i forgot how much fun it was bein a kid. just havin sum careless fun and actin silly. so me, Dhabu, Sheetal, and Sneha went to the park today and went on the swings and that thing that spins (dunno wut its called, excuse my immigrantness). we were sooo dizzy after that we couldnt walk straight. well except Sheetal. she apparently never gets dizzy. when Jadi came, we walked to Sneha's house with great effort. picture "kal ho naa ho" when they were goin home after the club, drunk, holdin on to each other haha (dont worry if u have no clue wut im talkin about here). by that time it got a little chilly so Sneha's bro drove us home.
ah i luuuv summery weather. makes all your worries go away (until u get home anyway =/)

its always fun hangin out wit Dhabu n her cuzins cuz they make me feel like one of the fam. did i mention how i luuv big families. so much love to go around. hangin out with them makes me miss my own fam just a lil less.

now back to reality....school is starting n i have to take a placement test on fri...great...isnt it a lil too early? i mean i still got full blown academy senioritis goin on here...how do they expect me to sit thru a 2 and a half hr test? eh

im gonna skip on my newest lil obsession cuz well....mimi suggested i write about sumthin more interesting haha.
thats all folks.

tanche @ 2004-04-15T16:58:00

2004-04-15T20:58:59Z

hmm time to update? sure why not
first off, havent finished the movie sigh the suspense is killin meee.
yesterday was rainy. i went walkin wit my friend n it was fun. we got honked at by sum ghetto as hell truck drivers (wud ya expect its little ferry)
wated to go to the mall but....no money + no ride = stay home n be bored.
im curious, whos anonymous on my last entry?

in responce to ur comment: here's sum Bulgariannness to balance things out:
(traditional Bulgarian singin wit a story) Ivana - Jordan Velichka Dumashe
that thing she does wit her voice is sooo hard (its almost exact imitation of the beginning instrument), they have special schools that teach it.
story comming later today

Kalia - Luda Biala Mesechina (Crazy White Halfmoon)
this one is a Romeo n Juliet type of song only much naughtier lol starts out very cuteish n turns to well ur regular modern stuff.

i want comments. gimme gimme gimmeeee!!

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
- In the local newspapers, that same day, appeared welcoming messages for the dear (ofcourse) guests - bratri Bulhari. (taken and translated from V. Bai Ganyo at the exhibit in Prague)

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
- a book of scholarships (dont ask) or my bed.

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
- Angel.

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:
- 2:30

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
- 2:29 woa freaky...

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
- Music: (Bulgarian Music) Preslava - Tazi nosht
and um...lots of cars passing by

7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?
- yesterday in the raiinnn woohoo. i was walkin wit my friend (we wanted to see how frizzy our hair would get)

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
- backwords: my email, my breakfast, the inside of my eyelids

9: What are you wearing?
- Pj's n a sweater.

10: Did you dream last night?
- yes...it was a weird dream like usual but i dont really remember it

11: When did you last laugh?
- yesterday when my parents were makin fun on me...cuz i was yelling at them

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?
- pix of ba peepz, pix of little ferry peeps n my old class, stuff i drew, posters of hot guys and a cuteeee kitty calendar

13: Seen anything weird lately?
- yes in my dream that i cant remember (this is gonna bother me arg). other than that, there was a really strange lookin dude walkin down the street yesterday (the strange part - ppl dont walk outside in LF)

14: What do you think of this quiz?
- eh...im bored n very out of it so id say.....colorfull and swirlyyyy wheeee.

15: What is the last film you saw?
- Kal Ho Naa Ho. (still to finish) other than that, The Prince and Me

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
- plane tickets for me n ppl to travel all over Europe n the US (i got the urge to travel all of a sudden)

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
- i am a very shy person (with ppl i dont kno)

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
- i like mimi's answer but i am not as informed so i'd do sumthin like get rid of slavery or world hunger

19: Do you like to dance?
- i luv it...as long as there's no1 watchin lol

20: George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?
- i'd go wit the first one. he seems to care more about his image than anythin else. maybe hes not dumber than the average person, but hes not wise enough to make such imortant desicions

21a: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
- continuing tradition, Daniela

21b: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
- this name needs to come from the husband's side of the fam.

22: Would you ever consider living abroad?
- i am living abroad...i have considered going home (Bulgaria) after im done with this education shiznit, but i'd love to live sumwhere in Europe for a while, like France or Italy or Spain (maybe study or work there)

tanche @ 2004-04-13T13:20:00

2004-04-13T17:20:24Z

Music: (Bulgarian Music) Evita - Nevazmojen
Extra Nina - Bojestven Znak

my first entry for this LJ!!!
thanx to the great efforts of mimi n janet i now have a new journal to blab on....isnt it great...here i gooo
watchin foreign movies is so refreshing, so different. so, yesterday i went over a friend's house and watched a part of this really great movie with my favorite actor (SRK) sinse this summer. now keep in mind i havent had a really favorite movie sinse "the lion king" and now every new movie of his that comes out is my favorite. so this summer, purely out of boredom i started watchin an indian movie of his at that same friend's house. and i fell in love. this is my 4th SRK movie that im watching and if i went on to describe why i love his movies so much this will be too long. ok maybe i will (ill try to keep it short). there is such passion in those movies n especially in the characters he plays that u forget its a movie. u wanna laff n cry at the same time and u end up doin just that. the overall idea of his movies is very familiar n may even seem overplayed but the way the story is played out makes u not wanna take ur eyes off the screen for the whole 3 hours that it's playing. its all in the details.
dont think im obsessed yet? well lemme just say that im not that big on movies...i mean after its done its like "hmm that was good, so wuts next" but SRK's movies reallllyy stay with u even months later.
well i cant help it, im posting a lil summary of the new movie:

Kal Ho Na Ho

Starring
Shah Rukh Khan .... Aman Mathur
Preity Zinta .... Naina Catherine Kapur
Saif Ali Khan .... Rohit

Synopsis
Kal Ho Naa Ho is the story of three friends whose relationship is based on unconditional love and emotional empathy with each other.

The setting is New York in present times. Life is quite brooding for Naina Catherine Kapur (Preity Zinta). The cause of her sombre lifestyle is a family tragedy that shook her world and took her happiness away.

Her humdrum daily routine includes her chores in her half Punjabi-half Catholic household in which she has to deal with a short tempered grand-mother, has to look after her little sister and brother besides helping her mother Jennifer [Jaya Bachchan] deal with the family's financial troubles. In short, life could not be drabber for this gorgeous belle.

But things change with the coming of Aman Mathur [Shah Rukh Khan] into the tiny Indian neighborhood where she lives.

Aman is an extrovert person who gets friendly with almost everybody and begins to win everybody’s heart with his jolly nature. When he sees the sadness in a young and beautiful girl like Naina, he sets about to bring happiness into her life.

For this he also gets help from his good friend Rohit [Saif Ali Khan], an eligible Manhattan bachelor.

After few initial failures, the two manage to bring Naina out of her dull and gloomy moods and make her genuinely happy. The three become very good friends and every thing is hunky-dory.

But this happiness is short-lived when it turns out that one of them suffers from a deadly disease

Review
Karan Johar-SRK combination works for the third time as the two come up with a film that begins on a lighthearted note but ends with a climax that will reduce viewers to tears. Nikhil Advani deserves all praises for telling the story without making it mushy and yet not compromising on the emotional quotient at the same time.

At the center of the story is a happy-go-luck fellow who spreads happiness and believes in giving to others without demanding anything back. But as is said that behind every smile there lies an unshed tear, so is the case with the film’s protagonist Aman. And then there is a character of a gorgeous girl who seems to be aging before her time until Aman comes into her life. In the sidelines is a jolly guy (Saif) who has a golden heart but cannot impress upon girls.

The proceedings are fine and everything seems hunky-dory until the relationship between the three is tested by the harsh realities of life.

Shahrukh Khan towers over everyone in the film with his kaleidoscopic performance. He brings smiles to many a face in the first half and he is the one who draws them to tears in the latter half of the movie.

Preity Zinta looks stunning throughout the movie and delivers a noteworthy performance. Saif too stands in equal stead and proves his salt as an actor. Jaya Bachchan, as usual, spellbinds the viewers with her histrionics.

On the whole Kal Ho Naa Ho is a healthy entertainer that will appeal to family crowds and viewers of all ages.

Ich trinke Schampus mit Lachsfisch!

2004-04-12T19:06:12Z

Hallo!

Zees eez Tanche! Und I have noosin' to talk ehboot.

Und I 'ev no idea vut accent I um speaking-- I mean-- writing in hyerhe. Becoose, I um a immigrahn’ to zee Stahts Uniteed. Und now, I vill be auf to zee INS. Oui oui y danke schoen!

Ciao!
Tanche

***
Zees loovely messiege vuz brooght to you by
Mimi

[Zat eez eef, you 'event guissed alreadie. Loseoirs!]

sup.

2004-04-11T17:36:54Z

aiite. this be janet. i'm taking over tania's LJ.

u got a problem wit dat?
didnt think so.

i'm sounding more mafiaish than ghetto. watever.

ok, bye now.

Hey Ya

2004-04-11T04:58:35Z

'Sup y'all. Dis hyeah be Tania. Peace out!

My new LJ is da shiznit! Biznitch! Represent, hos!